I have been wrestling with the Lord for the past year over a sin that has caused me to not put God first but to turn to food when I am frustrated, angry, upset or just plain tired. As we all know, these emotions are a common occurrence in moms who are raising children, serving the Lord, caring for a husband. It is especially tough in the evenings when I FINALLY get everyone to bed and I have some time to call my own. I have struggle with this most of my adult life but since Hopalong was born, it has become out of control.
I just want to make it clear that I am not talking about eating healthy, nutritious foods at the appropriate time. The Lord gave us food for our nourishment and so that we can thank him for his provision for us. The kind of eating I am talking about is when I eat the entire bag of chips, or a box of cookies (or both) when I am feeling stressed and angry and tired, when I should be turning to the Lord instead of food; when I eat more food than my body needs for nourishment, instead of praying to the Lord.
Since November, God has shown me how to be free from the bondage of overeating. He has shown me how to begin my day in His word and how to turn to Jesus, the Bread of Life when I am feeling overwhelmed, stressed, and angry. He has been feeding me in his word. He has given me two lovely ladies who have helped keep me accountable for my eating and who I can share my heart with. He has been guiding me and leading me on a journey that has brought me closer to the Lord than I have ever been in my life. It has been a rocky journey but a beautiful one.
Since Christmas, I believe Satan has decided to launch a full out assault against me. I can almost hear him thinking, “Oh, no you don’t. I can get you back into your old habits; I can make you turn to food instead of the Lord.
“I Peter 5 says, “8 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 9 Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.” It has almost overwhelmed me the amount of attacks Satan has been waging against me. I hardly know how he has time for anyone else.
I have been praying that the Lord would help me to overcome Satan and his attacks. He has been guiding me through ways to overcome Satan. He has shown me that the only way I know to fight a lion who wishes to devour me is to go to battle against him. I have been getting up each day and putting on the whole Armor of God.
Ephesians6:10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. 14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. 16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; 17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, 19 and also for me, that words may be given to me in opening my mouth boldly to proclaim the mystery of the gospel, 20 for which I am an ambassador in chains, that I may declare it boldly, as I ought to speak.
A lone soldier can be easily defeated, but an entire battalion can do even more. I am here asking you each to go to war with me. No, you don’t need to get your manicure messed up or even you clothes wrinkled. I am asking you to be prayer warriors with me. This will be a long battle and I need long term prayers. I covet is your prayers that I can defeat Satan and be able to continue to eat in control and with moderation, and that I can fit exercise into my daily schedule. James 5: 16 “Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.”
I am mustering the troupes, I am calling out the generals, this means war! I am claiming with Paul who three times pleaded with the Lord to remove his thorn in the flesh, Christ told Paul “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” I thank you each ahead of time for your prayer for me because I know you will do it. I too will pray for each one of you.